Monday, August 31, 2009

One month between Jobs

I can't believe the day arrived, but alas it did. Friday was my last day of employment for at least four months. Earlier in the pregnancy, as I fought off exhaustion and nausea in the afternoons sitting behind my computer I thought the day would never come. I have to admit that as "prepared" as I always think I am, this too has caught me by surprise. I actually teared up when I walked in the house on Friday evening and Tim asked me how my day went and if I was excited.

It isn't that I'm not excited or that I would even want to go back to work on Monday. It is more that this is another time of transition and with that, for me, comes a bittersweet reality. I have basically grown up professionally with the same very supportive and invested company and coworkers. The last six and a half years have had plenty of ups and downs (as Tim will testify to), but in the end the good far out weighs the hard. As I look back I am very thankful for my job and the people I have been able to work alongside and learn from.

I am also thankful that Tim is so supportive of me taking time off before the baby comes. He insists that my "job" now is to rest and relax (even though he knows I'll probably have a hard time sitting still). I'm one day in and I have to admit that I laid down for a few minutes mid morning and took an hour nap in the afternoon - lovely. I'm looking forward to this time of transition and reflection. As my mind clears from work matters, my thoughts turn to Little Whit and the proximity of his arrival. My excitement is building as the nursery comes together and I fold onsies and hang up sleepers in the closet.

Tonight my heart is full - Full of thankfulness for the things that have been and full of excitement (and nervousness) for the things that lie ahead. Maybe that is why I can't sleep and instead I am blogging:)

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Blessed by a Baby Shower

We are blessed to be surrounded by friends and family. In July a few college friends threw us a baby shower. It was so fun to be spoiled, but most of all to see people I feel like I hardly see anymore.

My Mom, Nana, and Sister Kristy also came into town for the weekend. It was blazing hot and I don't think our air conditioner did a darn thing for the house. They suffered through with me and it was great to have them in town. To put a perspective on how hot it was my Mom and I were attempting to sleep in Tim's and my bed on Saturday night. By 11:30pm, we were both out in the living room sprawled out on the tile floor trying to stay cool. There would be no good night sleep in that kind of heat.



On Saturday evening, my family and I went to dinner with Kelly and Kristin. Yeah for amazing Thai food in Paso. Kelly, Kristin, and I were a bit of a three musketeers kind of crew back in college (oh, so long ago). It was so great just to have them around. I think one of the things I love most about showers is the fact that it ends up being a bit of a reunion.



The shower was set for Sunday afternoon. We decided to play hooky from church and go to the movies instead. What can I say? The movies are air conditioned. We saw The Proposal with Kelly and Kristin. It was the perfect movie for a girls weekend. My Nana and I were sitting by each other and laughing about how much we were crying (total suckers for a it-would-never-happen-in-real-life romantic plots).



Then it was off to the shower. Like I said, I think my favorite thing was having so many friends in one place. The shower had a surfer theme and the favors were the most adorable white chocolate suckers that Kelly had made that were of a Little Dub surfing a wave. Of course, because the ladies are all very talented, the food was delicious, the games were fun and low key, and the whole thing was very special. Another great part, was that everyone who has a baby brought their baby - so fun:) We were unbelievably blessed by all the gifts. A couple highlights for me were the bedding from my mom, a hand-knit blanket from Nana, a swing from my sisters, and the Ergo from friends. Seriously, though all of the gifts were amazingly thoughtful and so useful (which you know I like).

I can't close without also mentioning that two of the gifts were especially for Kona and Asia. We know our friends know us when they buy gifts for the animals that we absolutely consider part of the family. We call them our little zoo. Kona got a bone and a chew toy. Asia recieved a cat nip mouse - who could ask for more?

With that, I want to give a special shout out to Stephanie, Nikki, Kelly, Kristal, and Kristy for being such sweet and giving friends (and sister). I know that showers take a lot of time and effort. Thanks for blessing Tim, Little Dub, and I with your mad showering skills. You are all loved very much (and not for showering as much as for being who you are in our lives).

I'm hoping to get a few shots of the shower itself to post later.

Fourth of July

We are way behind on our posts, but honestly did anyone expect it to be any different? Probably not.


The Upper Barn at Kimmel Vineyards

We were in Nor Cal for fourth of July with my (Jill's) family. It is a tradition to spend the weekend of the fourth at the family (Kimmel) ranch in Mendocino County. I grew up there until I was about ten and it is one of those places that will always be "home" for me no matter where I am. It holds an amazing sense of place with loads of open space and habitat surrounding about 40 plus acres of vineyards; we recently released our first vintage of the family label, Kimmel Vineyards. When we were younger (not long ago) and spent way to much time in the sun, we used to spend whole days swimming in and reading beside the two "lakes". They aren't lakes. One is a resevoir and the other is more of a large pond. This trip was much more about sitting around talking and eating, two of my favorite things.


The Fourth of July Crew

We arrived on friday afternoon. It was in the nineties so we promptly changed into our swimsuits (thank you, Nikki, for letting my borrow) and walked to the closest lake for a swim. It was probably quite a site because we only had one floating reclining chair thing, but we all wanted to use it so we all held on to the sides and chatted. I kept freaking out because the reeds on the side of the lake are creepy and if we got close everyone kicked to get back to the middle. Good times. Of course, Kona and Molly (Kimmel Padre's dog) had a great time playing keep away with the ball and swimming in the lake as well.


Kristy (sister) and I

Because the weather was so nice, Tim and I ended up sleeping under the stars in the back of the truck. It was serene to fall asleep with so many stars overhead. Actually, it was almost serene except for the fact that Kona slept with us us well (and by slept with us, I mean she slept on my legs and made it really uncomfortable).

Saturday was very relaxed. Tim and I took a walk to the back "lake" and threw the ball for Kona. She loves the ranch, but what dog wouldn't. The afternoon was consumed with napping and browsing through magazines - excellent. That evening was the Fourth of July so in typical Kimmel style we BBQed and hung out on my grandma's patio.


Nikki & Kona representing Saturday Afternoon at the Ranch

Sunday was a "get-r-done" kind of day. We recently grafted Sauvignon Blanc onto a small part of the vineyard, so we went to check it out. It was bit out of control with lots of shoots coming out of rootstock. Seeing work that needed to be done, we all jumped in and cleaned up the vines: Dad, Mom, Nana, Uncle Jim, Aunt Debby, Tim, myself, and the three dogs. Next, we checked fences and decided to raise a few of the wires because there were corners of the vineyard where deer were getting in and eating the leaves (difficult for photosynthesis if there are no leaves). My Dad was showing Tim what he wanted them to do by lifting the wire over his head and P-O-P! His shoulder popped, he winced, grimaced, and slouched. It was not a good sign. We took him back and set him up with ice for his shoulder. Tim and I went back to mend fences. We almost finished when my uncle came and told us that we needed to take my Dad to the ER. We did and it ended up being a very eventful Sunday. My Dad tore his rotator cuff - poor guy.


Tim and I stripping the unwanted shoots. Unfortunately there are no pictures of us fixing fence.

We finished our weekend by eating pizza with my family in Santa Rosa and hitting the road for home. It started out as a relaxing, easy does it kind of weekend and then ended up going out with a bang...or maybe it was a pop.

Thursday, July 09, 2009

Wii

I'm keeping it short and sweet today, but we had another birthing class last night. I am really enjoying them and soaking up all the information. The first week I was the only person asking questions. This week a few more women chimed in. I ask so many questions that when I was scratching my back the teacher asked if I had another question...

We did a word association game and then mingled with the other couples. I thought it was amusing. The purpose was to write down the first thing that comes to your mind...

Baby - Boy
Doctor or Midwife - Assist
Pain - Endure
Medication - Don't ask (I don't want to be asked if I want any)
Hospital - Smells
I think there were others but I threw the paper away.

The best part about the night was the tour of the maternity ward, labor rooms and post pardom (spelling?) rooms. They should have the laboring tub up and running by the time Little Dub decides to make his big entrance. Tim and I were cracking up at the back of the tour though because he wanted to ask if he could bring a Wii and play games in the laboring room. He thinks that Wii Fit should develop a labor game that the men can play while the women labor:)

By the way, we did much better this week with the relaxation part of the class. I was quite proud of our maturity. Though, if we are proud of our materity are we really mature?

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Thinking Out Loud

I went in for a routine gestational diabetes test last week and it turns out the I had to go back today for further testing. Apparently my blood sugar levels were high after the one hour test last wednesday.

Today the testing started at 8am when they took blood to see if they could continue the test. I had to wait 40 minutes for the go ahead. Then I got to drink the 12 oz of syrupy non-carbonated Sprite type soda at around 9:45 am. I might add that I had to fast for all this blood work. From 9:45 until 11:45, I had by blood taken once per hour. It was not pleasant, but I'm still alive. The worst part was having a crazy case of the shakes from not eating and gulping down the sugary beverage. After the final blood was drawn, I went directly to my car and ate...I love food.

I am hoping and praying that everything comes back normal and that over the three hour period my body was able to process the sugar appropriately. I should get the results on friday.

On a lighter note, Tim and I went to our first birthing class last wednesday night and for some reason I had a major case of the giggles. I thought that everything was really funny. Okay not everything because I also had a case of momentary bi-polar when they showed the labor and birth video and I cried when the baby was born. I was thankful that the lights were off for the movie. Right after that I found everything funny again though and I am positive that everyone else in the class was thinking, "Those kids are not mature enough to be having a baby". Perhaps that is what I was thinking as well...Or, we are just going to be better able to laugh through the hard times?

The class ended with relaxation practice and of course neither Tim or I could handle this part. They asked for us to stand with our partner behind us and of course Tim (jokingly) stands in front of me insisting that I am supposed to be rubbing his back. Once we got our positions in order, they were directing the partners to start at the scalp and run their fingers through the pregger's hair, down the neck and arms, and out the fingertips. How am I not supposed to laugh when I can feel Tim behind me doing strip tease moves as he follows the instructions?

We'll see how tonight's class goes. Perhaps after all the testing today, I'll have less energy for giggles which might work in my favor. In the end, I think I'm glad that we are so goofy and easily amused. It makes life more fun when you take it less seriously:)

Thursday, June 25, 2009

26 Weeks and the "New Casa"

We are officially in our third trimester! Yeah and scary. I can't believe how fast it has gone so far. I'm not sure I'll feel the same way once the typical Paso Robles summer hits and we have a week or two of 105 degree days.

I am growing a lot...as you can tell by the photo below. Little Dub is a moving machine and is really making himself known. We actually saw him move this week versus just feeling him. It was pretty crazy because it looked like he was trying to punch his way into the world.

Jill: Kona, Where is baby?

Kona: Silly Mom, Baby is in your belly!


We have been in the Crazy Horse house (yes, that is the name of our new street) for a couple of weeks now. We are settling in, but the place is still pretty much a mess. We are currently working on cleaning it up and choosing what we want to put on the walls. Tim took so many amazing pictures on our South Pacific trip that I think many of them will become our decor, but choosing is a challenge.

No progress on the baby's room. Tim insists on setting up the rest of the home before embarking on painting the room, etc. I am trying to agree:)

Here are a few pics of the new place. Please hold your judgment on the general disarray of everything.

Front of house:


Entry way/Front door:



Front door/Entry way from inside:



Living Room (from other side of entry way pic):


Kitchen from top of dining room:


Kitchen towards dining room:


Guestroom:

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Kicker

I cannot believe it has almost been one month since our last post. In some ways I am not suprised considering the fact that so much has happened in just a few weeks.

First of all, this kid is a kicker. Every week I feel like he moves and grooves more and more. I have lately found myself suprised at the randomness of his movements. I'll be sitting at my desk at work or even better yet be on the phone and he'll do a jig or some kind of karate chop and I'll lurch or lose track of what I'm saying. It is a bit comical and makes me laugh. I love it.

After we found out that Baby Dub is in fact Baby Boy Dub, we hit the ground running...on everything but Baby stuff. We are so excited and are starting to talk more seriously about names and the like. By the way, naming someone is a really big deal. I am a bit overwhelmed at the thought of it. I'm not sure that we'll settle on anything until after we meet him. We're actually thinking about not naming him until he is three or four so that we can get to know him and name him appropriately...JUST KIDDING! Are you crazy? Yeah right, I could have the patience to wait for anything for three years...except for Tim to propose, of course:)

Seriously though, we closed on a house in Paso Robles and proceeded to paint it and move in within one week. It was crazy, exhausting, and stupid, but we're glad it is "over". We had good friends and family helping us and that made a huge difference. I'll get some photos up here soon, but in the meantime, I just wanted to say that we are alive. We are still blogging. God is good.

Friday, May 15, 2009

It's a BOY!

First of all, Praise the Lord! Seriously, I am in complete awe of the miracle growing inside of me. Tim and I had an ultrasound yesterday and were blessed with a really great Tech, Lisa, who spent a lot of time with us, showed us the baby from many different angles, and printed us a lot of pictures.

We were able to see our little boy's feet, fists, spine, and profile. The best part was watching him open and close his mouth, swallow, and make a sucking motion. It was fascinating and definitely made me tear up. Our Tech commented that he has a bunch of room, but was scrunched up in a little ball towards the side of my tummy. I said, "That's my boy. We like curling up and cuddling in small places." Anyways, here are a few of the photos. Thanks for celebrating with us.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Card from Baby Whit

I must post because the little one in my tummy gave me a card for Mother's Day. It was really cute. It proceeded to rail me for already calling it names that will give it complexes and got mad at Tim and I for taking great trips without "it". But, it did tell me that she/she crashed the party in Australia:)

My present? 1. Larger in the middle (how else would anyone know I'm a mom) 2. Cravings that give me a reason to eat whatever I want even if that is bag after bag of sour patch kids 3. Excuses because I can blame it on Baby anytime I don't feel like doing anything 4. Belly Rubs...Baby told everyone that they can rub my belly anytime they want whether they know me or not (this will be my first lesson for baby...not cool) 5. The card - He/she said she would have made me something better but he/she needed help from Dad and he is difficult to work with;)

It was honestly the coolest card ever. It is definitely going into the Baby Book. Love you, Tim;)

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mama's Day

So today was the day to honor all of our mothers for being the amazing people that they are. How should we go about celebrating such an endless profession in a manner that would be fitting to the trials and hardships associated with the job? Most people would respond with champagne brunch and flowers. This is not the way of the Hawk/Whitacre mothers day celebration. Here are a few snippets of what made the celebration itinerary this year.


Somehow the paintball gun has become a part of most gatherings that we join in on at the Hawks house. A few mothers days ago we gave our mothers paintball guns and all the kids ran up the hill without any weapons. The mothers proceeded to shoot us (their unarmed children) as we attempted to run back and forth while hiding behind the small trees. Luckily we were allowed to wear some protective gear. This year consisted of shooting a cardboard sign with a mother painted on it after beating a mothers day pinata until it spewed forth delicious candy. What could be better then this... well actually... just being able to hang out at with our family is what makes it special. The violent party games just give it that extra little kick, kind of like Slap Ya Mama.

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Swimmin' It Up

Earlier today I posted about the baby moving and wanting Tim to feel it...he did! Tonight the little swimmer was having a dance party and Tim got to feel it kick. We waited for awhile, but then we both felt it at the same time and we looked at each other with big, wide eyes.

It is such a miracle. Every new little piece of this process makes me realize more and more what a special journey we are on...crazy, scary, special.

He/She's Moving!!!

Okay, I can't help but write even if I don't have a picture to post with it...which is my favorite part about looking at other people's blogs.

Anyways, Today I am completely confident that what I am feeling is Baby Whitacre and it is making me absolutely giddy. It stops me in my tracks and makes me smile. I cannot wait until it is significant enough for Tim to feel.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Three and a half years later

Okay. This is a bit embarrassing, but our last blog on this site was November 2005. What can I say? Blogging didn't really stick for us on the first round, but after blogging on the South Pacific trip I think we'll do better on round two. Or maybe I should say that I am hoping we will do better on the second try.

I am hoping to chronicle our first pregnancy and share our experiences with those who aren't close by us. Not just the pregnancy, life in general really. But tonight I have pregos on the brain.

I don't have much to say right now probably because I'm tired, but one thing I did notice tonight is that for the first time since being a pudgy (and I was very pudgy) baby and toddler, by tummy is sticking out further than my chest. Normally this would freak me out. Before I was pregnant or even thinking about being pregnant, I was really nervous about gaining weight and having my body change. Now that I am in the midst of it, I am so proud of my belly and feel so blessed to be able to experience the changes.

Tim and I are trying to take pictures weekly now to be able to look back at the stages and development. Here I am at 15 weeks, I think. My mom saw this picture and said that my butt is still bigger than my tummy so I probably should post it...thanks, Mom:)



The next picture is at 17 weeks during a trip to Shaver Lake. I might not have the hops I did in the South Pacific, but clearly I still have the awesome hair did.



Here I am today, after a jog/walk at nineteen weeks:



Last but not least, I think I can feel the baby move, but am not totally confident. I should be able to distinguish it more in the coming days and weeks, but for now I try to evaluate whether what I'm feeling each time is a gas bubble or a flutter kick from our little swimmer.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Oh, how we love new babies!

This is another best freind, Nikki and her new little boy, Isaac Andrew. This is just two days after Isaac was born - he is a doll. He really looks like the gerber baby, just perfect. Nikki is my bosom buddy and since she moved a few hours away, I miss her like crazy. I can't wait to see Isaac and Nikki again soon...Can you tell I love all the new babies in my life??? Posted by Picasa

Me and my favorite niece, Ruby Rae Costello

This is my favorite little girl in the whole wide world. She is the daughter of my best friend, Mellissa. She is three months old and very cute as you can see. This picture was taken at her dedication party. I hadn't seen her since a few days after she was born. She's grown so much. I'm excited to get to know her more as she grows and to hopefully walk alongside her and her mama for a long time to come. Ruby, we love you! Posted by Picasa

Wednesday, September 14, 2005


The joy of living in the country

Saturday, July 09, 2005


The Wife in the Yard, living off the land, or at least pruning the hedges...

Friday, July 08, 2005

Our Baby


This is our new kitten Asia. If you ask her, she would tell you her name is Asia NO!!!

Our Special Place

Finally found our special place

Well everyone, we have moved into our new place, and thought it would be a good idea to start getting with the times... so we are stepping out into the blogging world. Well onto the show...
We love our new house, which we just started renting this month. It is a two bedroom, two bath house out in the wine country of east templeton. Tim starts working full time in a little over a week. This means the end of the college life, and onto the real world. As I write this, Jill is finishing up a baby blanket/quilt for little Ruby Costello. This is her first quilt and I have to say it looks great to me. Seems my wife is quite the seamstress. Pictures of our new place will be up here soon so everyone can see what it is like where we are at. Tonight we hung out with Scott and Whitney Casares...... went to the paso park and listened to some fun music... came home and had salmon and sausage... had kalua frozen yogurt with kalua on top and chocolate shavings and chocolate chips and coconut and ... overall a good night.